Where knowledge is power and God is powerless?

I have finally realized why it is important for me to continue pursuing higher education. Now this is personal, this is the individual calling that I believe that God has put upon my life, this is the arena and the season for which He has had me pursue intellectual endeavors for His Glory. This may not always be the context and the arena that I serve Him in. But I am becoming aware by the revealing of his Holy Spirit that where he has me is right where he wants because He has put this stronghold this steadfast of the heart in me for Him. For the things of God for the love of God for the passion he has for his people. To decipher what is vain in the fight and what is his will. He has called me to an arena that doesn’t like to let him exist. He has called me into a place where the very idea of a God existing amidst atrocity and fallacy in our world seems to be mere paradox and seem to ravage His image as savior and loving. This place where knowledge is power and God is powerless. Where independence and success are the pursuit, and submission and depending on a higher source is deemed an uneducated choice of desperation. ”For me, to live is Christ, to die is gain” It boggles my mind that when we are suffering and without, we wonder how can God exist with all this suffering and pain. When we gain much knowledge we decide we don’t need a God, we can now do for ourselves. At what point do we pursue God? At what point do we submit our will and wants and way in exchange for His? God has called me here, here I find my fight, here I see His peace