When your problems are colossal and God is small. When God is not enough. When your hope is dwindling. When your too full to even express it. This is the location where God declares that your life is not in your own hands but that your life's fate is in his hands. And until you surrender to the Big God of all things that is sufficient no matter the problem and is able to restore your hope and sustain you admidst depression. You will feel swarmed by circumstances, overtaken by creation and defeated by your emotions. But God is able! He has a legacy of sustaining his people admidts great darkness and despair. Cry out to the God of light, be broken before him, offer him your heart so that He may mend it again. It is only He that can change hearts.

Oh How He loves Us!

A powerful testament of Christ love for us. I love this!

Where knowledge is power and God is powerless?

I have finally realized why it is important for me to continue pursuing higher education. Now this is personal, this is the individual calling that I believe that God has put upon my life, this is the arena and the season for which He has had me pursue intellectual endeavors for His Glory. This may not always be the context and the arena that I serve Him in. But I am becoming aware by the revealing of his Holy Spirit that where he has me is right where he wants because He has put this stronghold this steadfast of the heart in me for Him. For the things of God for the love of God for the passion he has for his people. To decipher what is vain in the fight and what is his will. He has called me to an arena that doesn’t like to let him exist. He has called me into a place where the very idea of a God existing amidst atrocity and fallacy in our world seems to be mere paradox and seem to ravage His image as savior and loving. This place where knowledge is power and God is powerless. Where independence and success are the pursuit, and submission and depending on a higher source is deemed an uneducated choice of desperation. ”For me, to live is Christ, to die is gain” It boggles my mind that when we are suffering and without, we wonder how can God exist with all this suffering and pain. When we gain much knowledge we decide we don’t need a God, we can now do for ourselves. At what point do we pursue God? At what point do we submit our will and wants and way in exchange for His? God has called me here, here I find my fight, here I see His peace

Today my henna speaks volumes

 Because I had forgotten it was there.

But immediately when I remembered I felt at peace

I felt pride. I felt as though I was standing up for what I believed in

I felt as though I was in a community meeting advocating the rights of my people

I felt as I was planting seeds in a new community garden in Oakland

I felt as though I was protesting police brutality

I felt as though I was watching my afterschool programs kids learn the value of respect

And my highschoolers the power within resilience

I felt love, I felt justice, I felt home

Today my henna silently speaks to my mind, heart and soul

When my henna fades, 

what it signifies will be lived out in me and in the work of my community.

That gives me peace

That gives me justice.